Well, our journey to “Metaphorical Maine” has come to a close, I think. We had set aside 3 weeks and actually came back in 10 days. We added a day trip after two days of rest, but I think we’re home-based again. Steve has re-activated his online bookselling business, so that means we’ll be no more than 2 days away from home now. Did we actually go to Maine? No. The weather report for the northeast was predicting “rainy and cold” for the entire first week. We figured that might dampen our spirits, so we headed south. We ended up staying the first night in exactly the same spot where we stayed on our first trip together 4 years ago…in the car, pulled into a picnic area in the Shawnee National Forest in southern Illinois. We slept in the car from 3 a.m. until dawn, then found a proper campsite at the Pound Lake Hollow area. We enjoyed hiking on Beaver Trail 006 in the forest and the Rim Rock Trail. There was no moon; the stars were bright enough to guide us on a night hike (no flashlight) the second day down to the lake where we startled a beaver. At least I think it was a beaver. We never actually saw him, but either he was pounding the surface of the lake at intervals from different spots with his powerful tail, or someone was throwing bricks into the still, dark water from somewhere very well hidden! Here’s a little gallery of shots from the Shawnee National Forest.
Steve and I donated our hair to Locks of Love yesterday. Ten inches each. A wonderful way to re-purpose hair if you don’t have your own compost pile. We got our cuts for free and were left with enough to still pull into a ponytail so that hair care on our camping trip will be a bit easier. Thanks to MaeLyn and Megan at Azana Spa in Brookfield, we are now ready to roll down the road a bit freer and easier! Here’s a gallery of shots of the event:
How ironic. Today is definitely a day of SAD. Last night, Steve & I had another epic “relationship discussion” that left me with swollen eyes. I simply could not stop crying. This morning, I got my period. So typical. This week’s pert little challenge topic just made me laugh. What does it mean to be happy? “May all beings be happy.” Even with puffy bags and stinging eyes, I believe that I am happy. Even clinging like a wreck for survival, I believe that I am happy. Maybe that’s my grossest delusion. I willfully believe that I am happy, no matter what.
So what makes me happy? Sunshine. Family. Christmas. Here’s a photo of my kids on Christmas Day last year.
Out of the technological complications of internet networking come some of the simplest expressions of human compassion, a wish for another person’s well-being, even if that person is a virtual stranger. And it makes the sleek, glib, electric world a bit softer and warmer. I’ve made some sweet connections this week with a few of my favorite bloggers, all of whom live at least a couple thousand miles away. I’d like to share them with the rest of you.
Mistress of Monsters is like another daughter to me, in a way. She is getting married next week. Here’s an exchange we had. She turned it into a blog post.
And then there’s that rascal, Stuart. He’s a gritty city photographer who travels to exotic places like Brazil and Spain and has just taken up residence at a farm for the winter. We inspire each other to keep open to possibilities. Here’s his post. Our exchange is in the comments section.
I’ll be taking about 3 weeks off from the blogosphere beginning next week, but I will be thinking of all of you. May All Beings Be Happy.
Last Tuesday, I went to visit my daughter and son at their new house in Batavia. I brought along a box of mixed photos from storage to sort, and I got the opportunity to meet Becca’s boyfriend’s parents. Becca and I made a simple supper out of what was on hand in their garden and from their purchases from the Farmer’s Market that week. I find it a challenge and a victory when I can figure out how to put a meal on the table without having to go out to pick up any more ingredients! We made a corn/potato/bacon chowder, a loaf of Challah bread, and a salad. It was great fun planning and cooking with her in her new kitchen, and of course, I had to show off my new camera, too! Here’s a shot:
What do we really possess? What possesses us? What is “me” all about?
For years I called this place “my prairie”. I do not own the land; I think it belongs to the village park district. I cannot even claim to own land in the neighborhood any more, as I moved out of state almost 2 years ago. But I associate some of my deepest “me” moments with this place. I walked into this prairie, with a feeling of reverence and retreat as if I were entering my personal sanctuary, on a regular basis while I was living nearby. I was in the midst of raising 4 children, nursing a dying husband, and striving to grow mature in those 20 years. My sense of identity, my sense of spirit and of sanctity and of God were all shaped by the time I spent here. I felt the place “talk” to me, as changes in weather, flora and fauna taught me to observe and ponder the significance of transience and transcendence. I cannot say that anything here is “mine”, really, but much of me will always belong with this place.
My favorite colors are showing up all over the landscape. I want to wrap myself in this tapestry and let my golden brown and green eyes sparkle in these complimentary surroundings. I look forward to finding more colors on my upcoming adventure to the Northeast!
Buddhism teaches me much about the interconnectedness of all things, about perspective in consciousness, about the dangers of dogma and claiming to know the capital T “Truth” about anything. What is this thing in front of you? You can give it a name, describe it with words and symbols, but that is not the reality of that thing. Those words and symbols are useful but limited. The experience of that thing is more, more than you can describe or symbolize, more than you can communicate. Yesterday, I went to Lapham Peak State Park and climbed a tower. Here are three different views of the tower. How do I convey the experience, the wind, the dizzying aspect of ascent, the vast horizon, the humor of humans who visit and the irony of our inability to depict our emotions and our consciousness of grand things? Perhaps these shots will give you a partial idea.