One of my followers has awarded me with the Shine On! Award, so I am gratefully acknowledging this compliment with an extra post this week. The Soul Driven Mind strikes me as a very earnest blog by a man who seems to walk the intersection of hard core systems like the Air Force and IT while keeping his head outdoors or on Mars. I applaud him for challenging himself to widen and deepen his vision, to keep in touch with his natural, creative self and to let that place speak freely and inform him on a regular basis. Whether that routinely clashes with his profession, I’m not sure, but I can imagine it would sometime. I wish him great courage and fortitude in his quest and the ability to make the tough choices with joy!
I am to state 7 things about myself, so here’s what comes off the top of my head:
1)I am currently very excited about my oldest daughter’s wedding next month, and by excited, I mean a little out of my depth and emotionally charged in many ways. If her dad were still alive, the social roles would be much easier to figure out, and I would be guided and shielded by his very confident, extroverted personality. As it is, I am forging a new path on my own, not always predictable. I cry, feeling sad and angry that he’s not present. I put my own quirky self out there, vulnerable and honest, and wonder if that will be acceptable and satisfying to myself and my family. But these are people whom I deeply love, and to give myself, however frightening that may be, is the best I have to offer. So, it’s pretty thrilling all around!
2) I am hatching a huge creative project. I just bought a 5 subject notebook at Walgreen’s yesterday, and I plan to fill it with all kinds of brainstorming notes. I don’t want to reveal just yet what it’s about, but it’s an embryo that gives me a secret glow.
3) I ordered a dress from India to wear to the wedding. It’s waiting at the Post Office for me to pick it up. Does every woman have fantasies about being radiant for some occasion and fears about being merely ordinary? What is the Middle Way of beauty? Seeing myself as lovely and alive and sacred but no higher than any other creature on the planet, I suppose, even the graceful little mosquitoes who may show up at this outdoor event!
4) I love the smell of Wisconsin in the summer: that humid, earthy, rain-soaked fragrance of Girl Scout camp makes me feel like I’m 8 years old again.
5) I love children’s books, and I looked very much like Sal in Robert McCloskey’s books “One Morning in Maine” and “Blueberries for Sal”. Bobbed blond hair swept to the side in a barrette, jeans with an elastic waistband at the back, sneakers, sweatshirt. Pictures of pre-school me growing up in Massachusetts are an uncanny likeness of her.
6) The last movie I watched was “A Wedding”, the Robert Altman film starring Carol Burnett, Desi Arnaz, Jr., Mia Farrow, etc. A comedy without a laugh track, satirical and ambiguous. We don’t have TV and don’t feel interested in the movies that are being made these days, but there are lots of good films in the archives to provide social commentary and philosophical and psychological fodder for conversation and introspection. Taking on weddings and family dysfunctions seemed like a good project for this week. 🙂
7) I love good food. I went to the Farmer’s Market on Saturday and bought a pint box of Sugar Snap Peas. They are so fresh and sweet, all raw and fertile, that I wish it were summer all year so that I could enjoy them more frequently. But then, I suppose, I would stop paying attention. The habitual way of putting calories into my mouth is so uninteresting. I like focusing on something unusual and life-giving. The last meal I really regretted was a Culver’s butter burger basket. So much grease! Never again….
This last part is always the most difficult for me. I’m supposed to nominate 15 other blogs for this award and link to them and notify them of the award requirements. First of all, I don’t follow very many blogs because I simply haven’t the time to read them. The ones I do follow, I’ve already given awards to (if they even accept them). I also refuse to tell anyone that there’s a requirement for receiving an award. My appreciation is offered without obligations attached. That said, I will share the new blogs that I’ve been following:
Steve McCurry’s Blog(you know the guy who photographed that iconic Afgan woman with the haunting eyes for the cover of National Geographic? Yup, the same man.)
Into the Bardo: A Blogazine (I’ve actually been added as a contributor to this one, and all the contributors are people whose work I would recommend.)
I hope the short list doesn’t disappoint anyone. Thank you for contributing to the expressive community of artists, thinkers, and humans that make this blogosphere so interesting and worthwhile! I am pleased to be among you!