I learned that the blue flower growing in my garden and all over the Wehr Nature Center woods is called scilla siberica (wood squill) and is native to southwestern Russia, the Caucasus and Turkey. I am guessing that settlers brought it over here about a hundred years ago. I’m tickled that we have parts of our name in common! I am thinking more about the settlers and their way of life while I wait to hear about the outcome of my Old World Wisconsin interview. What did they find different about the flora and fauna here? What did they miss from the old country? How does the emotional connection to land, a place, a “mother country” develop, and what did it feel like to venture out from there to an unknown place?
Memories are sweet; what is here right now is also sweet.
I find myself using more energy to be present with what is right in front of me. When I retreat to my memories, I take that energy and shelter it deep within myself. It feels like I’m hiding, in a way. It’s not easy to allow anyone else to inhabit that place. It’s slow and calm and secret.
I have a memory garden. It blooms with the flowers of the old country: my babies, my husband, my house, my youth. I like to visit it and inhale its familiar fragrance. I am alone there.
The world of the present is all around that secret garden. It asks to be acknowledged, appreciated, and invited into my deep consciousness.
I could call this my “settler’s mind”. But there really is no division. Here, there, then, now…it’s all fluid, connected, like the roots and rhizomes of wild flowers.
“One of the illusions of life is that the present hour is not the critical, decisive hour. Write it on your heart that every day is the best day of the year.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson
Every day is the best day, every place you are is the best place.